Poem: Hilarious!

Flashbacks

mind goes zip zap
to things from wayback
things labeled “forget”
sealed memories, kept
for old age to regret
things not meant for you
you wished were left for you
things not good for you
but wish were best for you
mind goes zip zap
to excitement and setbacks
new memories and drawbacks
low cheers and heartaches
flood of memories when love breaks
when what you felt didn’t match what you said
encouragement wasn’t encouraging
happy places wasn’t inspiring
crying wasn’t helping
laughing wasn’t helping
being inside wasn’t helping
outdoors wasn’t helping
being with people wasn’t helping
being alone wasn’t helping
break up wasn’t helping
make up wasn’t helping
where “I’ve moved on” is hilarious
“you’ll get through this” was lunacy
optimistic words were foolery
where tomorrow seem painted
with the heartbreak of today
where “why?” is the only language you know to say
flashbacks
unacknowledged feelings wanting recognition
forgotten memory
temporarily
refusing to be forgotten
remember me? the fun we had
remember this? how much you laughed?
moving on doesn’t mean moving past
but to move on, you see today, and not the past
mind reminds you
what you should not repeat
your victories,
odds you were strong enough to beat
flashbacks
to things from wayback
before the lesson, before the testing
the disappointment, that what was terrible for you
was taken from you
but know this, young man
know this, as you age,
your understanding of certain memories change
if you lose what isn’t good for you,
no point asking why
instead, hold that head up, high!
flashbacks reminds you you’re yet alive.
Therefore, be yet alive.