Life: Have Your Last.

I wrote down a difficult question this morning, one of those “I don’t want to think about that”, “why should I care?” type of questions but even with my mild rebellion and moderate arrogance, I still have to set time aside, soon, to figure out my answer. I am hungry at the moment and cannot bother with deep thinking.

Actually, I asked myself two questions today, I’d share with you or maybe not. Haha

Here ya go:
Setting: There’s about to be chaos everywhere, because Earth is ending. Life is wrapping up and existence is going kaput. Before the mayhem you get a rare option, you get asked:

• If there was one person you’d want to spend time with before the world ends, outside of family, who would it be?
• If you were to have a group of five people around you before the world ends, who would be in this group?

Haha what? I don’t know. Are we talking dead or alive? are we talking ex lovers, ex friends, randoms, people I had one memorable conversation with, a politician, whichever person from history people blame for ruining the world. It’s definitely a thinker. Attempting to understand the question springs up another question.

What is the value of an interaction, to you?

At what point does a conversation matter? Would it be at the point where you both mesh ideas and think alike? or does how you value the person make the interaction valuable? is it what you get out of the interaction that makes it valuable?

What is the value of a relationship, a friendship, a bond, an understanding to you? It is not uncommon to lose something valuable, it is not uncommon to lose someone valuable. Actually, sometimes we willing give up valuable things, sometimes we leave valuable people, is it smart to lose valuable things? Is it wise to lose valuable people? What about valuable moments, what do we do with fleeting valuable moments?

Lots of questions this morning, what was I doing last night? Haha

If you are like me, there are things in the past you’d rather not think about, people you’d rather not remember — not that I had a difficult past but why go digging what wanted to be buried, why go finding who wanted to leave, why rekindle a flame you put out? you know, what’s the point? Who wants to ruffle feelings from days past? who does that help?

Even worse, I’m naturally future minded. What will happen, what comes next, what do I want to happen next? what do I want? what would be good for those who belong to me. Future minded. So, to shift my mindset to think about the past is like writing an epistle on an empty stomach, which I’m doing at the moment. Not much fun.

Yet, difficult things are sometimes necessary. If you don’t know where you’ve stepped, you don’t know where next to step.

I don’t want to be Ninety to have an aha! moment, I want to uncover now, so I can enjoy more now or repair now or leave alone in real time.

How high do you hold moments? very easily a person can name at least one person they would happily go forever without interacting with again. How easily can we name five people we would want around us if the world, or our world was ending?

If there was an expiration date on your connection with your spouse, what would you want to say before the clock goes beep! beep!! beep!!! 00:00:00.

Imagine there was some sort of expiration date on your friendship, what would you want to say to your “bestie” before you stopped speaking, or someone moves to a remote place void of satellite’s interference. What would you say to your child if there was an expiration date on how long you would be together?

What about your sight? if there was an expiration on what your eyes could see, what would you want to see before you go blind? Where would you want to walk before your legs give out? what would you want to experience before your back refuses to bend?

Every interaction ends. Every activity ends. Moments end. Friendships end. What would you like to say before silence takes over? You realize the void eventually wins? From silence to interaction to silence.

It feels sad to think about. We’d rather think beautiful thoughts, life improving, financial muscle increasing, love blossoming, spicy bedroom, funny dates, normal children, we’d rather envision flowers and rolling beaches and endless sunsets. There’s a place for that.

What value is life if you have to wait till the world is ending to have a conversation with the one person you want to have world ending conversations with?

What fun is the umbrella, mimosas and cushioned beach chair, if there are five people you’d want to end life with, that you don’t see much of or even speak to?

Sometimes it takes the end of a thing to see what should have gone differently. Ninety is an eternity away. This is your aha moment, mine too.

The last of everything is often the most valuable, the last breath, the last kiss, the last goodbye, the last sight, the last property, the last surviving parent, the last football game, the last experience. Envisioning the one person you’d want to have your last conversation with, knowing your last Five — shapes, should shape, those you love on today.

One can be smart and happy, successful and comfortable, healthy and peppy, one can be righteous and set apart, one can put together a good life and still miss it. Your fans will remember your goals long after you. Have goals, yet don’t lose your supporters. Some goals only matter because of the person cheerleading you to achieve them. Have goals, reach them but don’t overlook those who make your goals matter. Have goals, reach them, achieve them but don’t overlook those who make your heart matter.

Sad it would be to experience this life in all its glory, sad it would be to go through life without finding one person to be truly open with, completely vulnerable with. Be of value and superglue yourself to valuable people.

Live life with those you’d end life with. Simple As.

. . . where do I drop the mic? haha

With Love,

Famous Steve.